If you are actually reading this, kudos! Thanks for being interested in my craps haha.
Another year is ending soon in few hours time.
2014 is ..... Too fast? And pretty much sucks.
It is impossible to list out all the shitty moments and experience I'd throughout the year.
I'd spent first half of the year working (internship, office work & weekends work) , the rest half suffering because of a wrong decision.
The only things worth remembering were probably my getaway trip to Krabi and my personal 'project' was at the peak.
These few months, or should I say the whole year, I'd been utterly upset, too much thoughts occupying my little mind.
That's not me. My friends and colleagues used to ask why I always looked worry free and happy-go-lucky. I thought I can hide my emotions pretty well till I started receiving comments that I looked sad, troubled, not as cheerful as before at later part of this year.
I don't know what I want, or actually I do know what I want but I don't know how I should achieve them, is it worth to give up everything and chase it, will I regret, and so on and on and on.
So exhausted and suffocating by my own thoughts. Tearing between going for what will makes me happier and staying to do what is right.
After days and days of considerations, with lots of different opinions , I'd decided to follow my heart, which is quit school. Yes, majority of people will respond that's not right, I should preserve.But I'm not that type of person who will say give up easily too, it took me a lot of courage to make this decision too. So much things I'd to give up and consider consequences I may face in future.
But I shall believe in myself I will be fine and accomplish greater things. My life from 2015 onwards will be on my own hands. Really grateful for people around me supporting me. That's all I need.
And fuck new year resolutions, because I can never achieve them haha.
Just hoping I will find back myself and be happy with whatever I choose to do, not to regret any more.
xoxo
